Today as i look back to the day i created this blog.... i was different... i believed in things that were stupid... that i now realize were unrealistic.... but they were full of passion..... or rather full of a self esteem blown out of proportion.... a person who was caught up between what he could do.. and what everyone else he could do.....
Maybe in that way i havent changed much ... for starters i am still to be sure of what i can do... and what others expect me to do....

i thought i would write in this blog everything that i felt from the day i created it.... but well as tells the date.... its after a really long time.... maybe i needed to wait this long.. to understand things a bit better..... to know that u never knwo it all.... that u never even get to know a tiny bit of it all

I guess i have become afraid of challenges.... challanges that might lead to failure... i was not like that once.... i didnt think twice about ne faliur.. i took life simply.... within ... a kind of logic... only i understood.... and it worked ... it showed me recognition...... it brought me sucess.... it brought me frnds..... Maybe it was because then i didnt have nething to lose.... or i had too little brains to calculate things and that everytime the luck favoured me..... whatever it was ..... today i realize what it takes to stand up in the crowd and be on the losing side..... be on the side i have seen people satnding on..... i learnt lessons from it no other experience could have taught.... i realized what it meant when people said... "faliurs make u learn much more "

I realized the condition of the people who stood by that crowd of 5000... that crowd who would cheer them on the stupidest joke.. the crowd that would boo them on the subtlest remark..... the crowd that shed tears for u.... the crowd that laughed at ur face..... i learnt that those people r the ones who were leaders... who did what they had to do.... who knew of the failure approaching and faced it like a man.....

I now knew..... bieng completly honest ..... was not what leaders do..... they had to suffer somethigns on their own..... the defeat..... the agaony..... and the helplessness of not bieng able to nething

as i sit here today.... alone.. in my room... i dream..... and i note this dream.. to remeber.... something i might think was stupid after a series of more experiences..... btu well i am a in the moment kind off guy... i dream of going on with my dream of being no ordinary person..... i DREAM BIG

i dont know... whether this thought will gone from my mind or not after i wake up... but what i know is that right now i believe it,...... and ehy... like i wrote in my script.... believeing is what counts.....

this passageis not written by a person who has made a startling discovery which will change him completely... infact it is th person who is still as confused as he was ... still as afraid as he was..... e might not even look back twice on this passage... but he hopes ot make history... he hopes that life will take him to his destined routes as it alwasy ahs..... that life will continue its lessons... SO important lessons.. and that he misses none of them


may all the dreams come true....coz hey dreaming about it is never harmful