DID YOU HAVE THIS DREAM??


Everyone knows that we don’t really remember our dreams in most cases… the analogy often used is that they are like sand in your hands … the harder you try to keep it the faster it slips away …. but sometimes I feel they tend to strike back in some completely unrelated moment… or so it seems…. One such dream I realized I had…. And not once too … many times …. Is where under different setups (meaning … sometimes from a field… sometimes from a balcony… sometimes from my hostel room …)… I start running and just take off in the air… as if it was the most obvious thing to do …. And its not like I am soaring in the sky … its just that I start floating… exactly like one would feel while floating in water… I start floating towards the place I wanted to go in my dreams …. But the problem is .. even though initially it feels very obvious … the moment I over think the fact that I am floating … I fall down … and it seems impossible to do it again …. No matter how hard I try .. how hard I run… and just a moment after I give up and stop thinking about it …. I realize my feet is off the ground….. and this time that joy of floating is much much more…. This time I am able to cherish the feeling it actually gives… its pure .. unadulterated… 100% happiness…. Nothing more …. Nothing less…. And I just keep rising ... and so does the feeling…. As I reach very high in the sky … its almost like I know whats gonna happen next …. Do I dread it .. sire I do … do I know what its gonna feel like… I do …. Am I fond of that .. HELL NO…… but still … this time I just know…. And perhaps just knowing whats gonna follow … makes it a different experience …. And u would have guessed too … I start falling … fall like a rock … faster and faster … and I get that gudgudi feeling in my stomach that I cant control …. And BAM like any hindi movie scene … I wake up as soon as I hit the floor…..

After I realized I had this dream … my first reaction was … wow .. this would look cool in a movie … u just keep running and start floating … not in a super human kind of way .. but like it is the most obvious thing to do …. And this picture came to my mind of a book I had when I was kid … it was adventures of peter pan …. Sure my dream didn’t involve pirates and fairies … but somehow I felt that the way the 3 children flew away was exactly the same … maybe even the author of that story had some similar dream and jyst that he extended it in to a fairy tale story with his talent…. And I am stuck here just writing a blog about it ….

(I first ended the blog here … but I am tempted to write the following)

A Theory: Dreams are just invisible dvds floating in the air … that our mind cum dvd player can read once we are asleep …. And after viewing the dvd we throw it back into air … which then might travel to wherever the wind might take it ….

But one thing is for sure …. These dreams are actually better than real movies…. Much much better …. Movies show you the incident… dreams make you feel them … I cant stop thinking about that feeling …. I am a man of limited vocabulary … but I think even if I had the words .. it wont be possible to describe adequately …..
The REASON

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you