Someone today said a thing which brought me a great sense of relief... and i dont know why
"Our mind is incapable of creation, its only function is to react. We can never create a scene, a poem or a play.... we can only react in our own style to things going on around us."
Softly Now,
You owe it to the world
And everyone knows that you're my favourite girl
But there's some things in life that are not meant to be
I'm not meant for you and your not meant for me
Here's to our problems
And here's to our fights
Here's to our achings
And here's to you having a Good life
From Me
Good Life
Softer Now,
You owe it to yourself
And don't think that you will be left on the shelf
Cause there's someone for you and there's someone for me
Like me you'll meet them eventually
Here's to your lover
And here's to my wife
Here's to your children and here's to you having a good life
From Me
Good Life
Baby Baby Baby Baby
Baby Baby Baby Baby Baby Baby
Louder Now,
You've lost all your pain
You're married with children and happy again
And now I'm regretting the move that I made
Fatal mistakes are so easily made
Enough of my problems they only cause fights
Forget that I rang you
And promise you'll have such a
Beautifully happy and painlessly romantic
Good life
From Me
Good Life
You owe it to the world
And everyone knows that you're my favourite girl
But there's some things in life that are not meant to be
I'm not meant for you and your not meant for me
Here's to our problems
And here's to our fights
Here's to our achings
And here's to you having a Good life
From Me
Good Life
Softer Now,
You owe it to yourself
And don't think that you will be left on the shelf
Cause there's someone for you and there's someone for me
Like me you'll meet them eventually
Here's to your lover
And here's to my wife
Here's to your children and here's to you having a good life
From Me
Good Life
Baby Baby Baby Baby
Baby Baby Baby Baby Baby Baby
Louder Now,
You've lost all your pain
You're married with children and happy again
And now I'm regretting the move that I made
Fatal mistakes are so easily made
Enough of my problems they only cause fights
Forget that I rang you
And promise you'll have such a
Beautifully happy and painlessly romantic
Good life
From Me
Good Life
"The thing is... we dont have to hate each other for getting older ... we just hav to forgive ourselves for growing up"
-The wonder years 4X01 Growing Up
-The wonder years 4X01 Growing Up
"The purpose of life is to end"...remember this?
i believe "The purpose of life is to find a reason to end... a reason WORTH ending"....
i believe "The purpose of life is to find a reason to end... a reason WORTH ending"....
I hope one day i can pray again... pray like when i was a child... convinced that someone is surely listening to what i have to say....
Thousand roads and one band
Making the trip of all times tomorrow
See what they play and tune along
Body aint you baby, the you is what counts
And when those paths are crossed
We will know the destiny
Round about the circle it will complete
I just hope its different from the beginning
I wont go to time machine to change it all
Only thing I would ever invent is a pause button, for me … if not for all
You would say its easier to just rewind
But it will again reach the end sometime
Making the trip of all times tomorrow
See what they play and tune along
Body aint you baby, the you is what counts
And when those paths are crossed
We will know the destiny
Round about the circle it will complete
I just hope its different from the beginning
I wont go to time machine to change it all
Only thing I would ever invent is a pause button, for me … if not for all
You would say its easier to just rewind
But it will again reach the end sometime
“All Love stories are same “. Here is what it means. You cannot make someone hear the sound of love, or cook a dish to taste it, You cant blow a wind that would make them feel the special touch, nor write a poem with love as the rhyme. To each person it’s a separate feeling, linking to someone, bringing a feeling of utter simplicity, as if it were the most obvious thing. And all the rest of the stories feel the same to him. But why do people keep writing these romantic stories then. If your neigbour lights a candle, you may not be able to feel the warmth, but you might just be reminded of that flame inside you…..
Staring of in the space
The twinge under the nose, the dampening of the eyes
I know this too well, I know it somehow
I pray again, to keep me this sane
Because I know, I will be back there again
The twinge under the nose, the dampening of the eyes
I know this too well, I know it somehow
I pray again, to keep me this sane
Because I know, I will be back there again
Its very difficult to let go of the other… but then again perhaps the answer is in its simplicity. You would feel like a flow once its done, enjoying every twist and change of direction rather than feeling it as a bump or a writers block
Simply one word for the following passage one of my friends sent me.... "EXACTLY"
BEING IN TWENTIES - SOMETHING WORTH READING
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. You want to settle down for good because now all of a sudden that becomes top priority. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.You begin to think a companion for life is better than a hundred in the shack and for once you would not mind standing tall for that special someone which otherwise you had never thought of until now.You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion...
We call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
BEING IN TWENTIES - SOMETHING WORTH READING
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. You want to settle down for good because now all of a sudden that becomes top priority. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.You begin to think a companion for life is better than a hundred in the shack and for once you would not mind standing tall for that special someone which otherwise you had never thought of until now.You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion...
We call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
Tell her not to go
I aint holding on no more
Tell her something in my mind freezes up from time to time
Tell her not to cry
I just got scared thats all
Tell her Ill be by her side, all she has to do is call
Tell her the chips are down
I drank too much and shouted it aloud
Tell her something in my heart
Needs her more than even clowns need the laughter of the crowd
Tell her what was wrong
I sometimes think to much
But say nothing at all
And tell her from this high terrain, I am ready now to fall
Tell her not to go
I aint holding on no more
Tell her nothing if not this; all I want to do is kiss her
Tell her something in my mind
Freezes up from time to time.
I aint holding on no more
Tell her something in my mind freezes up from time to time
Tell her not to cry
I just got scared thats all
Tell her Ill be by her side, all she has to do is call
Tell her the chips are down
I drank too much and shouted it aloud
Tell her something in my heart
Needs her more than even clowns need the laughter of the crowd
Tell her what was wrong
I sometimes think to much
But say nothing at all
And tell her from this high terrain, I am ready now to fall
Tell her not to go
I aint holding on no more
Tell her nothing if not this; all I want to do is kiss her
Tell her something in my mind
Freezes up from time to time.
I remember the time ... when i enjoyed this feeling .. the feeling of not knowing what lays ahead... it was exciting ... it had possibilities... and more importantly it gave my dreams a breathing space.
But for last few days it seems impossible to get back that feeling. It almost as if ... without realising i have to choose ..... between the life that has been programed for me and that uncertain future. And this time its for real. ITS REAL ... more than i culd have imagined.... its a decision i will only shot at. and slowly i see that breathing space for my dreams fading away.... and thats the thing i am most afraid of ... losing that hope... hope of change... hope of geeting what i want... I cant even tell a person i love about my feelings because i am afraid of bieng snacthed of that illusion that at a perfect moment wuld come when i wuld do that... I heard of a line in this movie that would feel the situation very well.... "A real loser is the one who is afraid of even trying because he might loose"..... but isnt it possible that he is afraid because that dream ... that illusion is so dear to him.... maybe others who get the courage to try .... know that they can handle losing their dream... maybe its not what they really really wanted ... maybe for them there are other options
Even today i believe.... i wuld not live a common life.... i would NOT let go of my dreams .. my ambition .... and this belief is so thin now.... that i fear it might break at any moment.... and i can hear myself shouting
WHY CANT I BE DIFFERENT
WHY IS THERE ALWAYS THAT GUILT FEELING ... that i am doing something wrong... that this not what others expect out of me ... that this would not impress someone i wuld like to impress.... time and again and again and again..... perhaps its true .... HUMAN RACE is born to be misreblle.... EVERYONE ..... People just say things like....
"Life is Unfair".... "grow up .... its real world now".. and this world is mean ... it has no respect for other person .... and i cant understand why ..... i know that one day my reaction to these same questions wuld be .... thats how world is .... but today in this brief moment when i have let myself go .... i scream here .... NO IT CANNOT BE .... IT CANT BE LIKED I DIDNT IMAGINE IT TO BE .... its my way .... my way ...IT HAS TO BE MY WAY .... and i will make it my way ...... one way or another....
But for last few days it seems impossible to get back that feeling. It almost as if ... without realising i have to choose ..... between the life that has been programed for me and that uncertain future. And this time its for real. ITS REAL ... more than i culd have imagined.... its a decision i will only shot at. and slowly i see that breathing space for my dreams fading away.... and thats the thing i am most afraid of ... losing that hope... hope of change... hope of geeting what i want... I cant even tell a person i love about my feelings because i am afraid of bieng snacthed of that illusion that at a perfect moment wuld come when i wuld do that... I heard of a line in this movie that would feel the situation very well.... "A real loser is the one who is afraid of even trying because he might loose"..... but isnt it possible that he is afraid because that dream ... that illusion is so dear to him.... maybe others who get the courage to try .... know that they can handle losing their dream... maybe its not what they really really wanted ... maybe for them there are other options
Even today i believe.... i wuld not live a common life.... i would NOT let go of my dreams .. my ambition .... and this belief is so thin now.... that i fear it might break at any moment.... and i can hear myself shouting
WHY CANT I BE DIFFERENT
WHY IS THERE ALWAYS THAT GUILT FEELING ... that i am doing something wrong... that this not what others expect out of me ... that this would not impress someone i wuld like to impress.... time and again and again and again..... perhaps its true .... HUMAN RACE is born to be misreblle.... EVERYONE ..... People just say things like....
"Life is Unfair".... "grow up .... its real world now".. and this world is mean ... it has no respect for other person .... and i cant understand why ..... i know that one day my reaction to these same questions wuld be .... thats how world is .... but today in this brief moment when i have let myself go .... i scream here .... NO IT CANNOT BE .... IT CANT BE LIKED I DIDNT IMAGINE IT TO BE .... its my way .... my way ...IT HAS TO BE MY WAY .... and i will make it my way ...... one way or another....
Thank you GOD....
Just a passing thought in the daily travel to office ...
Thankyou GOD .. for this ability to forget ... for I know those special moments are rare .. and we would rather forget the rest...
BUT
more importantly .... Thank you GOD for this ability to forget... so that we may relive those special moments again and again whenever we are reminded of them...
P.S: watched my valfi video last night :P:P
Just a passing thought in the daily travel to office ...
Thankyou GOD .. for this ability to forget ... for I know those special moments are rare .. and we would rather forget the rest...
BUT
more importantly .... Thank you GOD for this ability to forget... so that we may relive those special moments again and again whenever we are reminded of them...
P.S: watched my valfi video last night :P:P
DID YOU HAVE THIS DREAM??
Everyone knows that we don’t really remember our dreams in most cases… the analogy often used is that they are like sand in your hands … the harder you try to keep it the faster it slips away …. but sometimes I feel they tend to strike back in some completely unrelated moment… or so it seems…. One such dream I realized I had…. And not once too … many times …. Is where under different setups (meaning … sometimes from a field… sometimes from a balcony… sometimes from my hostel room …)… I start running and just take off in the air… as if it was the most obvious thing to do …. And its not like I am soaring in the sky … its just that I start floating… exactly like one would feel while floating in water… I start floating towards the place I wanted to go in my dreams …. But the problem is .. even though initially it feels very obvious … the moment I over think the fact that I am floating … I fall down … and it seems impossible to do it again …. No matter how hard I try .. how hard I run… and just a moment after I give up and stop thinking about it …. I realize my feet is off the ground….. and this time that joy of floating is much much more…. This time I am able to cherish the feeling it actually gives… its pure .. unadulterated… 100% happiness…. Nothing more …. Nothing less…. And I just keep rising ... and so does the feeling…. As I reach very high in the sky … its almost like I know whats gonna happen next …. Do I dread it .. sire I do … do I know what its gonna feel like… I do …. Am I fond of that .. HELL NO…… but still … this time I just know…. And perhaps just knowing whats gonna follow … makes it a different experience …. And u would have guessed too … I start falling … fall like a rock … faster and faster … and I get that gudgudi feeling in my stomach that I cant control …. And BAM like any hindi movie scene … I wake up as soon as I hit the floor…..
After I realized I had this dream … my first reaction was … wow .. this would look cool in a movie … u just keep running and start floating … not in a super human kind of way .. but like it is the most obvious thing to do …. And this picture came to my mind of a book I had when I was kid … it was adventures of peter pan …. Sure my dream didn’t involve pirates and fairies … but somehow I felt that the way the 3 children flew away was exactly the same … maybe even the author of that story had some similar dream and jyst that he extended it in to a fairy tale story with his talent…. And I am stuck here just writing a blog about it ….
(I first ended the blog here … but I am tempted to write the following)
A Theory: Dreams are just invisible dvds floating in the air … that our mind cum dvd player can read once we are asleep …. And after viewing the dvd we throw it back into air … which then might travel to wherever the wind might take it ….
But one thing is for sure …. These dreams are actually better than real movies…. Much much better …. Movies show you the incident… dreams make you feel them … I cant stop thinking about that feeling …. I am a man of limited vocabulary … but I think even if I had the words .. it wont be possible to describe adequately …..
The REASON
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
NOT YET
Recently we had our valfi… a function … or a party… or better still a ritual that marks the end of an era. Almost everyone for the last whole semester was waiting for it… I on the other hand was dreading it. I feared that it wont be like I imagine it to be. That something somewhere will go wrong… and this special day will be lost. I feared that I wont get a good slot …that I wont be able to tell everyone, everything I always wanted to… that somewhere someone will be hurt by what I might say. I feared that it will be like that movie that everyone praises... and you can then never enjoy it because of those expectations…I even tried to organize a pre-valfi nite... just in case...
But I culdnt have been more wrong… Everyone I wanted was there… I told everyone what I wanted to…. Hugged each friend one last time… cried .. and cried out loud… got into a mood of saying goodbye to everyone … felt close to every person that mattered. But still even after what will be called tending to perfect valfi … I still dread those hours … even after 4 days … and that is something I cant get of my mind… It is just a moment ago that I realized what the problem was… It was never a matter of .. who was there… what I said… what everyone else said about me… how did I feel … how brilliant the video was.. how perfect the profile was… the only problem was that doing all that… going through that experience meant accepting the fact that its all over now …. Accepting the fact that the reset button of life has been pushed … and I will have to start over and leave behind all that is here today….
Maybe I am not just ready for that…. Not this time…Not yet
COMMENTS PLZZ
To whom so ever it may concern....
NO actually its better to say Dear frnds ...
I need some help from you for a script :D:D.... and the topic is no other than "love"... sounds lame i know, but then i cant help it ... it is quite exciting and i have never written a love story.
Now the task at hand is that i would like you all to comment on a few questions listed below... plz think for moment, think about somethign related to your life connected to that question, and then answer. My thanks is the only incentive i can offer you for this help.... but the best answers 'might' get a treat at CCD ... no just kidding .....
But seriously ... plzz answer these it will help me lot
- Do you think that all love stories are almost the same... or each one is diffeerent
- Do you think ... love can be as fleeting as for half an hour
- Do you infact believe in the word defined love.... or do you think its more of you find someone compatible with you
- What does it feel like bieng in love ( AGAIN i will clarify its not a YASH RAJ productions:P)... you can use as much creativity as you like:P
- Can you fall in 'love' more than once in your lifetime......
- This one is very imp. : imagine a person likes you .... you know it but dont share the same feelings.... somehow you are stuck ina romantic situation.... that other person............. says he/she would like to kiss you .............. What would be your first thoughts........... not what will you say ....... but what will be the first thing going on in your head......
- Also anything else you would like to share on this topic
Just to clarify .. this is actually for a script ... and asking for everyones comments is just another crazy idea from my head ... because many a times i feel .. that whatever i write is very much related to what i know and feel rather than about the people whom i will FORCE to read it and appreciate it ...:P ...
waiting eagerly
Golani
To whom so ever it may concern....
NO actually its better to say Dear frnds ...
I need some help from you for a script :D:D.... and the topic is no other than "love"... sounds lame i know, but then i cant help it ... it is quite exciting and i have never written a love story.
Now the task at hand is that i would like you all to comment on a few questions listed below... plz think for moment, think about somethign related to your life connected to that question, and then answer. My thanks is the only incentive i can offer you for this help.... but the best answers 'might' get a treat at CCD ... no just kidding .....
But seriously ... plzz answer these it will help me lot
- Do you think that all love stories are almost the same... or each one is diffeerent
- Do you think ... love can be as fleeting as for half an hour
- Do you infact believe in the word defined love.... or do you think its more of you find someone compatible with you
- What does it feel like bieng in love ( AGAIN i will clarify its not a YASH RAJ productions:P)... you can use as much creativity as you like:P
- Can you fall in 'love' more than once in your lifetime......
- This one is very imp. : imagine a person likes you .... you know it but dont share the same feelings.... somehow you are stuck ina romantic situation.... that other person............. says he/she would like to kiss you .............. What would be your first thoughts........... not what will you say ....... but what will be the first thing going on in your head......
- Also anything else you would like to share on this topic
Just to clarify .. this is actually for a script ... and asking for everyones comments is just another crazy idea from my head ... because many a times i feel .. that whatever i write is very much related to what i know and feel rather than about the people whom i will FORCE to read it and appreciate it ...:P ...
waiting eagerly
Golani
crying for something thats wrong...
crying for something that culd have happened
crying for the difficult times in the past
crying for the tough road ahead
crying for the fact that everything can be lost
crying to have that victory.... which later wont matter
crying, for things are not as they used to be
crying because everybody hurts
crying for these times may never be remembered......
crying because i dont have an alter ego.....
crying because i feel the need for one
crying because i am not the center of the world...
crying because i might remain ordinary
crying because i am still a child .. programmed to be an adult
crying because this where i cry........
crying because its been too long now.......
crying because i feel manuplated
crying because i can never be alone...
crying because i feel alone
crying because everyone else does too .. and i cant do anything about it
crying because i dont know where i stand..
crying because ... i hope someone might read this
crying because i know they wont understand
CRYING for something ........ BUT DONT KNOW FOR WHAT
crying for something that culd have happened
crying for the difficult times in the past
crying for the tough road ahead
crying for the fact that everything can be lost
crying to have that victory.... which later wont matter
crying, for things are not as they used to be
crying because everybody hurts
crying for these times may never be remembered......
crying because i dont have an alter ego.....
crying because i feel the need for one
crying because i am not the center of the world...
crying because i might remain ordinary
crying because i am still a child .. programmed to be an adult
crying because this where i cry........
crying because its been too long now.......
crying because i feel manuplated
crying because i can never be alone...
crying because i feel alone
crying because everyone else does too .. and i cant do anything about it
crying because i dont know where i stand..
crying because ... i hope someone might read this
crying because i know they wont understand
CRYING for something ........ BUT DONT KNOW FOR WHAT
confidence!!
Its just a trick of mind... no person is different with low confidence then what he is when high in confidence..
its all just a trick
one moment u may believe that u can rule the world..... just the next... u find urself incapable of lifting a sword..
one who masters this trick can create wonders.... for he knows like a magician..... he always remebers... its just a trick .. an illusion.. and doesnot actually make any difference if u dont fall for the illusion....
JUST AN ILLUSION
Its just a trick of mind... no person is different with low confidence then what he is when high in confidence..
its all just a trick
one moment u may believe that u can rule the world..... just the next... u find urself incapable of lifting a sword..
one who masters this trick can create wonders.... for he knows like a magician..... he always remebers... its just a trick .. an illusion.. and doesnot actually make any difference if u dont fall for the illusion....
JUST AN ILLUSION